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21/11/23, Life update and kabbalistic theological ruminations |
post by gur dimei
These days I haven’t been getting out of the house much. I think, on sunday my mom took me to drink coffee in Mishmar HaSharon – cafés have nice atmosphere by early winter. By the night of the saturday before last saturday I went to buy an egg-sandwitch at the fuel station on highway 57. I felt good back then. I still do – kinda. Nevertheless, I kept working on my sefer, in which I elucidate the Daniel verse “His branches are fine and His fruits abundant” (“עפיה שפיר ואנבה שגיא” – Daniel 4:12) in a very long elucidation, which focuses a lot on the constitution of Ilana Yakira (“the Most-Precious Tree”) – the branches, substances and weeds that grow from Mana Yakira (“Most-Precious Vessel”) when Ma’ase-Merkava (“The Chariot-Operation”) is conducted. I have been on consistent NoFap, currently counting 3 months since last relapse. I was given antidepressants which seriously affect sexdrive, but when I skip them then yetzer hara attacks me. Nevertheless, I am standing firm against the Mazikim, and I am trying to be holy, although I feel very impure and diseased. I went to do blood-tests and urine-tests, and apparently my kidney problems (yes I have kidney problems now) are a result of my antipsychotics, as antipsychotics famously cause kidney problems frequently, and my blood-and-urine-tests showed that I don’t have any infections or diseases. During september, prior to the war, I felt extremely impure, but I also began putting tefilin and saying shema-on-the-bed and ana-b’choach. I began delving more deeply into Rabbi Nathan’s “Book of Creation”, and began realizing the incredible mystery that he was uncovering: the mystery of divine reproduction – as God reproduces with Himself, SEED&VESSEL, leading to the fruition and generation of newer psychic arborescences. The economy of judgment-and-grace makes the divine body accumulate form continually. |
On the Author: Gur Dimei is an Israeli ''Frankist Incel'', sha''tzposter and an independent researcher of the Zohar. |